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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Playground Wars

I have been trying to blog about this particular incident all week. I think it took me a while to get my thoughts together and they are still a little scattered - so excuse the run-on sentences and the stream of consciousness-type writing.

The kids and I spent last Saturday on Dauphin Island with my good friend Kim and her family. They were camping there for Spring Break so we went for the day for some beach and some fun. It was a great day complete with a picnic and some time on the playground. And that is where I met....HIM. The meanest 8 year old I think I have ever seen in my life. And I have spent almost 10 years working in public schools - the last 6 as an elementary school counselor.

While Kim and I say chatting on a park bench, I glanced to my left to catch Carson (Kim's son) jumping out of the way a kid taking a swing at him. At first I assumed it was simply a game of you-can't-get-me. But when this kid turned around, I knew he was not joking. This kid was armed with a plastic, full sized shotgun and was threatening any kid who dared step on the playground equipment he had declared his own property. But it wasn't just threats - he was acting on it.

"I think we can all share this slide." I said.

He then shoved the end of that shotgun at Ansley's head and made a noise like a shotgun blast and I was up and over there in about 10 seconds. Surely, I thought, if I stand here - staring at him - on this piece of playground equipment, he will either leave or at least leave my kids alone. We are not talking about the biggest playground - it was pretty much play on this or swing. But this was not to be. After being called several names I didn't hear until middle school, I watched him take that shotgun and swipe it at both me and the other kids attempting to climb up to get to the

And at that point, I was done. I firmly took the end of his shotgun in my hand, pulled it to me, leaned in close to his drawn up little face, and whispered, "If you touch me or another child on this playground again with your hand or this gun, I will lay you out on this ground."

Instantly I began praying that he believed me. That he really though I had it in me to put him flat on his back in front of God and everyone at the playground. Our eyes were locked for several seconds...and then he sat back. He had bought it. He bought my threat. The kids began climbing around him to get to the slide and he just sat there. No tears. No words.

After a few seconds, I told him we would love to play with him if he was nice. No answer.

A few minutes later, a van drove by and it was his ride. He took off running to the van. Well, I thought - perhaps I just bought myself to meeting with his mom - who is probably 100 pounds of muscle and tobacco...Maybe I can outrun her I thought. Kim can take the kids in the opposite direction.

But the van drove off.

And my heart was sad.

How sad to be 8 years old and to put a plastic shotgun to someone's temple and pull the plastic trigger. How sad to be that mean when you are so young.

When I told Jamey about it later, he said, "He is 100% showing off what he sees at home." And I know this is true. But the anger- the desire to hurt someone. At only 8 years old.

Ansley had so many questions about it. And let me tell you, it is not easy teaching your child the right way to stand up for themselves. When do you just concede the playground - when do you say, you know what? I can play here too. And Im not going to let you hurt me.

I'm not sure. But I am sure that my heart breaks for that little boy.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Back Home




Cruising was definitely a NEW experience for all the Dukes! And we jumped in with our whole crew not really knowing what to expect. It ended up being a great trip and a great experience for us all. We left Mobile about 4 Saturday afternoon and spent the next day and a half at sea. This meant time spent at the pool, reading, eating, eating and eating! Our rooms were tiny, but had everything we needed. We had pull down beds for the kids, but they spend pretty much every night in the room with my mom down the hall so we really didn't need the pull down beds anyway.
Jamey and I decided that we are more fans of the excursions than we are the days at sea. This was one clean and organized boat! And there was so much to do on the boat - we both just had kind of a, well, antsy feeling the days at sea. I am not sure if that makes sense. We loved exploring the cities. Progresso had the best cheap, fun jewelry. We all agreed that we wished we had purchased more pieces there. Cozumel did not have nearly the cheap (but still really cute) items. Everything there was expensive! In Cozumel, we went to Playa Mia for the day. Swimming, jumping on the water trampoline and taking a catamaran out were the events of the day.
Each night, our WONDERFUL waiter would present the best meal. It was so nice. I can't even begin to describe it. He told us he sees his family in the Philippines every 6-7 months. I don't know how he does it. He told us he was thankful to have a job and to be able to send money to his family. He was such a gentleman.
The shows on the boat were really good too. Much better than I had expected. I didn't realize they would do a dancing/singing show several nights. Also, they have a Camp Carnival that runs almost 24 hours a day for the kids. They did arts and crafts and games and snacks and movies for the kids.

Our only bad experience the whole time actually happened to my mom. But she was a trooper and let it roll right off of her. The pool on that boat was WAY too small and deck chairs were PRIME real estate. She found an empty chair one morning and sat down to read. About 45 minutes later a very LOUD and presumably drunk man insisted she had moved all his things to a secret location and had stolen his chair that he had been saving all morning. Um, ok. His wife was embarrassed (although I am assuming he behaved this way on a regular basis - too bad for her) and my mom told him she had done no such thing, but quickly moved away from the crazy man.

We are now researching the Disney cruise :) Of course, this is no surprise to any of you out there!!!
We are off to the beach tomorrow to visit with friends and soak up some of the last days of Spring Break 2010.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Watching her grow up

It's one thing to have an unhappy child b/c she is hungry or tired or because you are forcing her to brush her teeth (the horror). But watching your child unhappy because of things you can't control or shouldn't control, is a different ballgame entirely. And knowing when to step in and when to let her deal with it is certainly something I am not an expert in.

The children rushed through the open gate of the playground, baskets in hand. They took off in all directions searching for Easter eggs in the grass, near the fence, around the picnic table. The quickest children were filling up their baskets fast. But Ansley was not the quickest by any stretch of the imagination. She was always one or two steps behind the faster children - the ones who would reach out and grab an egg just as she reached for it. None of those children were mean and none were attempting to block Ansley from any of the eggs. But in the land of Easter egg hunts, it is every kid for themselves. It took about 30 seconds for Ansley to get frustrated. She looked at me with big eyes that were quickly filling with tears.
"I'm not fast enough." she tells me.
"Yes, you are." I tell her. And my heart is caught in my throat. We go behind the swarms of children and I help her see the less obvious eggs. The ones above her eye level. The ones tucked into crevices or fence boards. She begins to enjoy it and she adds a few eggs to her basket. The hunt is over in minutes. And she has FAR fewer eggs than most of the other children. I am proud of her when the child next to her announces she has 22 eggs and Ansley reponds by saying, "And I have 9 eggs." She does not tear up when saying it. Her little chin does not quiver. She hugs her basket of 9 eggs close to her little heart and smiles at me.

At times, she is going to be frustrated and hurt and sad through her life - just as I was at times growing up. But I hope she remembers that she is smart and beautiful and that she IS fast enough. She is just right the way she is.

Catching up with pictures..














































Tuesday, March 23, 2010

10 things I have learned in the past 3 days

There are many things I have learned over the past few days:

1. I will take a miracle wherever I can get it. Having your child unresponsive and turning blue on the same day 2 EMTs and an ER nurse happen to just be sitting in the back of your church is a miracle in my book. And I will take it.

2. USA Womens and Children is one stinking good hospital. Every single doctor, nurse, tech we met was polite, caring, attentive and compassionate. The volunteers were kind and spoke to Ansley and not about her. The teachers and volunteers at the school on the 4th and 5th floor were exceptional and Ansley was thrilled to go for the little while we were there.

3. Med students and nursing students like to ask questions. And I didn't mind answering them (or attempting to answer them) at all. They were all eager to learn and we were happy to help in the process. We had at least 6 student nurses ask permission to look in her chart or examine her and 3 different med students. All were polite and appreciative.

4. Caffeine and cardiology are Ansley's new words of the week. She is off of it completely. Now when the cardiologist told her no caffeine and explained what kind of drinks contained caffeine she replied, "Those are the drinks my mommy wont let me have." Whew - at least she didn't tell him she drank Dr Pepper with her cheerios that morning (which she did not by the way). I am pretty crazy about no caffeine for my kids and always have been so this is nothing new for us. I will admit though, that I do let her have sweet tea when we eat out sometimes - but as we don't eat out much anyway, it was few and far between. But goodbye caffeine! See you again, well, never if I have my way.

5. The pediatric cardiologist and his nurse get 2 thumbs up from the Duke family. He is straightforward about her heart, but also discussed with us his addiction to texting ( I also suffer from this addiction) His nurse patiently explained her heart monitors and had everything ready for us before we go there so we could "get right on out of there as quickly as possible." She also told Ansley up front she would not be poked, squeezed, scraped or mashed with an ultrasound wand. Ansley was relieved to hear it.

6. I have the best family and friends (some are coworkers, but as I consider them SO much more than just a coworker I am just calling them my friends) in the world. Of course, I already knew this, but they really raised the bar the past few days. Good job guys. And thank you from the bottom of my heart.

7. Going on a cruise to Mexico while wearing a heart monitor is completely possible as long as the cruise ship has a phone. Which is does. We will also be passing the hat to help pay for phone calls of heart results to the doctor back in Mobile... Kidding, Kidding...gotta love modern technology though. Because of it, we are home and NOT still in the hospital.

8. We WILL have a plan of action for the next time Ansley passes out. And according to the cardiologist, there is a good chance this is something that might happen again and again. Ok - so we know its going to happen. Now we write a plan. Everyone who even MIGHT take care of my baby at school, church, dance, sleepovers, will know exactly what to do if and when it happens. So I apologize in advance if I make you listen to a lecture, take notes and then repeat to me the instructions I just gave you. I'm pretty sure no one minds though - and having help is a great relief.

9. My 2 kids and Jamey are my world. Of course, I knew this one already too, but as I am not going to cry today ( I decided this morning) I will not type a lot of mushy stuff. But I will tell you this - Ansley, Jamey and I have laughed all day at Stephen telling us about his new "arts and CRAPS" kit from Aunt Peggy. He has been doing Arts and CRAPS all day. :)

10. And last on my list, I learned that visitors, balloons, cards, emails, singing cows and dancing flowers bring out giggles that make even a hospital room a nice place to be. But I AM glad to be home with both my babies.

Now, we press on with figuring this new world of cardiology out...thanks for walking with us along the way.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

And out of nowhere...

We spent this evening at a birthday party for a classmate of Ansley - a sweet little boy turning 6 years old. After an hour of playing it was time for birthday snacks. Ansley bites into a cookie and turns to me with a small frown and says - "My tooth feels funny!" A quick close inspection revealed......a loose tooth! Ansley's first one. She has been checking her teeth every night in the mirror. Hoping and praying that one is loose. And finally - it happens.
Her cheeks flushed and her eyes got really big. She whispers to herself, "My tooth - its loose - it's really loose."
I must admit I was probably as excited as she was. She immediately made her way around the room showing anyone who would listen and look that her tooth was indeed wiggling quite nicely. When we left the party, my cell phone was on her ear and she was calling grandparents and aunts and cousins. "It's loose - It's really loose. I can wiggle it with my tongue."

Stephen meanwhile is sitting listening to the phone conversations. He then says, "Mama, I don't have a loose tooth. They don't wiggle."
"No." I said. "But you will one day."
"But Mama," he says, "My tongue can wiggle - Is is gonna fall out too?"
"No baby, your tongue will not fall out."
"That is good." he says, apparently satisfied that his tongue was not about to fall out of his mouth.

My mom asked me if I had a tooth pillow and I don't. Why have I not thought of this? Why am I not ready? Its not like losing a tooth at age 6 is a surprise...I just am not sure that I was ready for it. Ansley sure was. She is wiggling it as I type this while she watches a movie. My mom tells me she is growing up.....oh, that just keeps happening! Really I don't know how my mom did it. If a loose tooth makes me this crazy inside, what will I do with other milestones?

She was very interested to know how much money the tooth fairy would be bringing when the loose tooth comes out...and honestly, I am not sure what the current exchange rate is for teeth. But the tooth fairy will be ready when it is time...or at least, ready to admit that time is moving faster than she wants. Rainy nights watching movies with my babies, hugs and squeals at the discovery of loose teeth, climbing the ladder of the slide all by themselves...these are the moments I am enjoying right now.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The List - Tagging my blogging buddies to do the same!

Instructions:
Copy the list, bold the ones you've done (with explanations if needed), share with friends.

1. Started your own blog - inspired by KPH! Also, much easier than lugging out the scrapbooking equipment!
2. Slept under the stars- many times - I was one of the best Boy Scouts ever!
3. Played in a band - for about 6 years. Some of my BEST friends growing up!
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower - I did watch the comet go over though
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland - yes! On my honeymoon!
8. Climbed a mountain - Well, not with a backpack, but have driven up several.
9. Held a praying mantis - held several!
10. Sang a solo - as a kid. Not happening now.
11. Bungee jumped - Yes, at Gulf Shores. It would not have been so bad if I had not gotten a terrible sunburn that day!
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a thunder and lightning storm -oh yes, all summer long and I love them.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty-
18. Grown your own vegetables - last summer was my first attempt. It did not go so well.
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill - sick days are for fun!
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb - at the fair
26. Gone skinny dipping - I do not think I will explain this one.
27. Run a Marathon - but I am about to do my first 10k!
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset

31. Hit a home run - several :)
32. Been on a cruise - no, but going on two this year!
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
Fun! I love it
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted - yep - mom had one done of Luke and me as kids
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain - LOVE IT :)
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason - a few times :)
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma - Yep to Blood and Platelets - no to plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone - several bones, several times
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle once - have ZERO desire to do it again
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby - 2 great kids!
95. Seen the Alamo in person - several times. Jamey has family in San Antonio
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
- Several times!